When Feilding returned from New York a few days after Mellen’s successful trepanation, she was persuaded that he had undergone a change for the better. “The difference is very subtle,” she explains. “Basically, I put it that the neurotic side of the person has a little less grip—because they’re higher, they have a little more bounce. The floor has been raised a bit, the balloon has been blown up a little bit more. It doesn’t mean it cures the neurotic bag, but I do think it lessens it slightly.”
Several months later, Feilding made up her mind to trepan herself. She was 23 when she decided to drill a hole in her skull with an electric drill as well. This time the operation was recorded on film. Joey operated the camera while Amanda trepanated herself. She shaves her hair, makes an incision in the scalp with a scalpel, and drills through the skull, causing blood to flow. After breaking through, Amanda experienced a slow change of consciousness. “Over the next four hours I had a kind of feeling like the tide coming in, a soft flowing feeling. … the ego had stopped talking”. As to how it feels today Amanda has said, “It’s not an ecstatic feeling at all, but it’s very slight rise in the level of the floor of the psyche to the floor of childhood.” and “If one puts the adult norm of consciousness at zero and the LSD users at one hundred, then the childhood level and that attained by trepanation is thirty, and the level of cannabis is around fifty to sixty.”
The film was edited with together the films of Amanda’s pet pigeon (to represent peace and wisdom) and music was added. It was released under the title “HeartBeat in the Brain”, and was played in lectures that they gave around Europe and the US. Many attending these lectures were known to faint when the film was shown. Amanda has written a pamphlet on the subject, titled “Blood and Consciousness” and has run for Parliament twice on the platform of trepanation for natural health. She admits, however, that she did this in order to publicize trepanation and did not expect to win.
Feilding became a leading propagandist for the benefits of trepanation. She stood for Parliament as an independent candidate in her local constituency of Chelsea in 1979 and 1983, campaigning on the sole platform that trepanation should be freely available on the National Health Service, doubling her share of the vote from 49 to 139 in the process (one journalist at the time asked whether these were gestures of support or protest, a way of saying that the country needed Mrs. Thatcher about as much as it needed a hole in the head).